Can't Have it Both Ways

I'm leaving this country that I love in two days.

And I want to keep traveling.

And I miss my kids.

I decided that the ideal is being here for my total 9/10 days, then having my kids delivered to me here (having taken care of them during their transatlantic flight, too.) Delivered to me happy, fed, & well-rested.

I want them here with me.

I don't want to leave.