Maritza Ruiz-Kim

Artist, San Francisco Bay Area

Recent Work


Animated Video: Holding On, 2018. 63 sec, no audio.

Animation over image of an acrylic painting.

Paintings: Acrylic on Birch Panel, 2018-2019

Digital Print: America, America, 2018. 12″ x 9″

Digital drawing, Epson print on Pacon white sulphite paper

Text & Sound Video: Us Talking, 2018. 1min 39sec, audio.

The audio in this video includes: recordings of children seeking asylum at the US border in Texas, 2018; the May Day Parade in Chicago, 2006 (credit: Ignotus at Free; and a refugee rights protest in London, 2016.

Digital Print: This is Me, This is You (Not Listening), 2018, digital print with wax, 18″ x 24″. 

(The text is follows the images below.)

The text below is from the left side of the piece from the perspective of the viewer.

This is You/ This is about who is best/ Can’t you see I need power/

I see you weak because you are weak/ My strength is my protection/ You think you’re so smart/ I know better/

I never liked you/ You look bad/ You don’t even take care of yourself/ You aren’t curious, you’re argumentative/ You aren’t smart, you’re empty/ You aren’t beautiful, you’re nothing/ You aren’t friendly, you’re stupid/ You’re so sensitive/ I knew you’d react like this/

You wanted this/ You’re entitled/ I’ve earned what I have/ This doesn’t belong to you/ None of this is yours/ I don’t want to hear you/ Stop complaining/ If you want it, get it yourself/ If you got it, you stole it/ You don’t deserve what I have/ I’ll tell you what you deserve/ You don’t deserve anything/

What about me/ I’ve done good things/ You don’t thank me/

I’ll tell you what’s wrong/ You’re what’s wrong/ I don’t want you here/ You came here to take/ You are conniving/ You want too much/ You are a big problem/ Your problems are your fault/ Stop talking to me about doing you wrong/ Stop talking to me about learning more/ Stop talking to me about forgetting things/ Stop talking to me about what you deserve/ You always complain/ You complain because you’re weak/ Your complaints don’t matter/ I’ll tell you what matters/ I won’t listen to you/ You listen to me/ Nobody’s done you wrong/ You’re what’s wrong with you/ I never did anything wrong/ You’re causing problems/ Nobody ever hurt you/

You need to know your place/ You don’t belong next to me/ You don’t belong here/ If you come closer, you’re a threat/ If you don’t move, I’m suspicious/ If you run away, I’m enraged/

I’ll show you/ I’m in control/ I’ll speak/ You’ll do what I say/ You don’t belong here/ I’ll keep belonging here

The text below is from the right side of the piece from the perspective of the viewer.

This is Me/ This should be about what is best/ Can’t you see you tower over me

I know what’s strong and what’s weak/ Your strength pushes me back/ You don’t even know me/ I know what I know/

I never liked this/ I know how you see me/ I ‘ve always taken care of myself/ I just want you to hear me/ I just want you to know something/ I just want to be valued/ I just want to be seen/ How I react is normal/ What I feel is real/

I didn’t want this/ Don’t take away what I have/ I want credit for what I’ve earned/ What I have belongs to me/ I have what I have/ My voice is something/ I will keep talking/ I will keep living/ I will keep working/ I want my own life/ I’m telling you what I deserve/ I deserve what I’m owed/

What about me/I’ve done good things/ You don’t think about me/

You tell me what’s wrong/ That’s what’s wrong/ I want to be here/ I’m here because I’m me/ I want something/ I am hopeful/ The problem is big/ The problem is not me/ You can’t hear your wrongs/ You can’t hear if you don’t want to know/ You can’t hear what you can’t see/ You can’t hear what I need/ I keep talking/ I keep talking because I am strong/ I matter/ What I say matters/ Listen to me/ You’re always talking/ I know what feels wrong/ I am not the problem/ You never listened/ You’re ignoring problems/ You never asked what hurt me

I know my place/ I belong where I am/ I belong where I am/ If I come closer, you’re threatened/ If I don’t move, you’re suspicious/ If I run away, you’re enraged/

Let me show you/ Let me control my life/ Let me talk to you/ Let me be/ I belong where I am/ I belong to myself

Art + Life Blog Posts

Notes on the intersection of art + my life.

All of Who We Are

I have a big project I’ve been working on all year… I don’t know how to sum it up, and there are lots of branches of this work as I research and make things and think and make more things…. Read more…

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Memorial Morning

I went to the Lafayette Crosses this morning. It’s not something I’ve been able to plan ahead to do. I can’t predict how I’ll feel the morning of, which is today. Would I want to stay snuggled in my warm Read more…

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Starting and Stopping

1. I’m listening to RadioLab’s podcast called “Oliver Sacks: A Journey from Where to Where” and it has recordings of Oliver Sacks’ writing. That’s right, the act of him writing, where one can hear the scratchings and his thought processes Read more…

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Art Education Blog Posts

Notes from my adventures in art education.

Mindful Painting at CoG

Week 2 at the Center of Gravity, here are the youngest kids getting a close look at their brushes and applying paint to their hands watercolor paper. 🙂 This week we worked with the colors red, yellow, green, and blue. Read more…

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Basic Brush Skills at CoG

It’s back to school week, and I’ve made a lot of new little friends at the Center of Gravity (CoG) where I teach two year olds through six year olds. I’m meeting mini-reflections of older sibs I’ve had in recent Read more…

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