MARITZA RUIZ-KIM

Artist, San Francisco Bay Area

Studio vs Exhaustion vs Parenting

I’ve spent hours in the studio. Working on new work. Been spending all weekend away from the boys, after a week of working feverishly most hours that GK is home from work. This morning, he took them for immunization shots. Read more…


The Family I Joined

What was it like to be her, my mother-in-law in the Bay Area in the seventies? I know there were not many Asians out here in Contra Costa County back then. Not really. To be fresh from Korea, married to Read more…


The Family We Have

We told the boys we will be adopting a baby sister. This is what I know about family so far: I come from a very large Mexican family. My mom had about 8 siblings (it’s hard to count exactly, with Read more…


And Then There Were Possibly Three?

How do I tell my story of adding to my family through adoption? Do I talk about why I can’t be pregnant again? It’s not that I can’t get pregnant. I have friends with infertility. Or even stay pregnant (I have Read more…


Waiting for a Girl

There’s not much else to do other than wait right now. We just got a letter in the mail confirming our Screening Appointment for Wednesday. I suppose this is where they decide if we know what we are getting into Read more…


“We Want a Girl, Too”

So finally I can get to the point. We want a daughter. And when I say We, I mean: Me, GK, Enn, Zee. We want a little girl in our home. We want to expand our family to accommodate one Read more…


Accidental Tourist at IKEA

Another surreal thing happened to me today. GK and I headed out to IKEA Emeryville, and of course I loved seeing some Goteburg cookies and identifying with the place, not just seeing it as a brand name, and then reading Read more…


Is It Me or is Health Insurance Confusing?

I am on the phone (on hold)  and there’s this myriad of confusions to clear up a medical bill for Enn’s 5th year well child physical, and it’s making me crazy. You see, I took him 2 and a half Read more…


The View from Here

Contra Costa County Sigh. I am so happy to be home. At least I think I am. It’s hard to feel too much when I am so tired. So, even though I am stumbling through each of these past 3 Read more…


Can’t Have it Both Ways

I’m leaving this country that I love in two days. And I want to keep traveling. And I miss my kids. I decided that the ideal is being here for my total 9/10 days, then having my kids delivered to Read more…


Working at Art

I am so tired. Trying to be a kind of working mom with doing my artwork again, squeezing it in between a vomiting kid (and scrubbing floors with clorox cleaner) and needy toddler and making dinner (I’d rather clean than Read more…


Bear Territory Dot Com

Yes, Enn walked on hallowed ground today. Or, almost. We were exactly across the street from Cal aka UC Berkeley aka Bear Territory because we visited the Berkeley Art Museum. The highlight for us both was the spinning globe that Read more…


A Life. Not Mine.

Enn is there, sitting and leaning back on the right in this group of his friends. It’s an amazingly beautiful thing to see your child living a life that’s his alone. He’s not sitting there as my kid, but as Read more…


More Thankfulness

1. for the times Enn & I get to create together 2. the anticipation of traveling! 3. the soft inquisitive voice Enn uses when he asks “Why, Mama?” Especially for questions like, is the train conductor a really tall humongous Read more…


Travels Planned

It looks as if GK is getting a chance to go to a conference in New York in the middle of August, and guess who’s going with him? Me! And Enn! (Zee will likely stay home with Abuelita.) No. Way. Read more…


A Roaring Good Time at the Zoo

We went to the San Francisco Zoo today. Over Christmas last year, a tiger here at the two men & killed one teenager. Local people remember this clearly. I shuttered a little as the lion roared today, and I told Read more…


Thanks for These Things

1. the way that Zee gets so excited that he yelps with happiness when he sees his breakfast 2. being in an art show and having friends be there with me 3. making new, small connections with my husband who Read more…


Two Studio Weeks

…but I was a little busy doing art for that juried show I have been wanting to do for three years. And the news came back so fast. I’m in! Now I have to write an artist’s statement, do a Read more…


Saying Thank You

Gonna try a new thing out. Saying Thank You. Gratitude, to God and for my life. 1. Two boys who mostly really love each other, who love being with each other. It only takes a little work here & there Read more…


Two Boys

Wow, I am lucky. I have these two amazing boys. I am not sure what to write about, after nearly three weeks of pregnancy issues, but here I am. Just want to say that Enn finished his last day of Read more…