MARITZA RUIZ-KIM

Artist & Writer, San Francisco Bay Area

It’s Personal

It’s Personal (2018-now)

I wonder if it’s possible to understand politics better if it’s viewed through the lens of personal relationships. Don’t we have at least some consensus on how people should treat one another? That’s the impetus for these pieces. I distill political conversations into into simple forms (dialogue or a plea from one person to another) to see if I can shed light on problematic viewpoints. Everyone has room to improve something. 

Video: Us Talking

1min 49s, audio
2018

Audio is from border recordings of children Texas 2018, May Day in Chicago 2006 (credit: Ignotus at Free sound.org), refugee rights protest London 2016. “Say it Loud Say it Clear” “Refugees are Welcome Here” “¿Que queremos?” “Legalicicion”

a Toxic Relationship that Undermines Multitudes of People: 

The Compromise that Infected All of Us

Tiny Zine, 2.75″ x 2″, 2020

Here’s this tiny zine/book thing: it’s 12 pgs, is approx 2.75” x 2”, approx 475 words, weighs in at a hefty 9 grams, and is made completely out of one piece of letter size paper. I’m printing them in black and white here at home. Friends and family: if you want to see the text and images, let me know via DM or text since I am not posting online until later. They’re $20 each, and the proceeds will go to charity. In August, I’m donating to the National Immigration Law Center; they’re doing great work for the needs of immigrant first responders (among other things like DACA)!

Digital Print: This is Me, This is You (Not Listening)

digital ink print with wax, 18″ x 12″, 2018… reading this text on desktop or laptop is easier than on mobile 🙂

The text below is from the left side of the piece from the perspective of the viewer.

This is Me/ This is about who is best/ Can’t you see I need power/

I see you weak because you are weak/ My strength is my protection/ You think you’re so smart/ I know better/

I never liked you/ You look bad/ You don’t even take care of yourself/ You aren’t curious, you’re argumentative/ You aren’t smart, you’re empty/ You aren’t beautiful, you’re nothing/ You aren’t friendly, you’re stupid/ You’re so sensitive/ I knew you’d react like this/

You wanted this/ You’re entitled/ I’ve earned what I have/ This doesn’t belong to you/ None of this is yours/ I don’t want to hear you/ Stop complaining/ If you want it, get it yourself/ If you got it, you stole it/ You don’t deserve what I have/ I’ll tell you what you deserve/ You don’t deserve anything/

What about me/ I’ve done good things/ You don’t thank me/

I’ll tell you what’s wrong/ You’re what’s wrong/ I don’t want you here/ You came here to take/ You are conniving/ You want too much/ You are a big problem/ Your problems are your fault/ Stop talking to me about doing you wrong/ Stop talking to me about learning more/ Stop talking to me about forgetting things/ Stop talking to me about what you deserve/ You always complain/ You complain because you’re weak/ Your complaints don’t matter/ I’ll tell you what matters/ I won’t listen to you/ You listen to me/ Nobody’s done you wrong/ You’re what’s wrong with you/ I never did anything wrong/ You’re causing problems/ Nobody ever hurt you/

You need to know your place/ You don’t belong next to me/ You don’t belong here/ If you come closer, you’re a threat/ If you don’t move, I’m suspicious/ If you run away, I’m enraged/

I’ll show you/ I’m in control/ I’ll speak/ You’ll do what I say/ You don’t belong here/ I’ll keep belonging here

The text below is from the right side of the piece from the perspective of the viewer.

This is Me/ This should be about what is best/ Can’t you see you tower over me

I know what’s strong and what’s weak/ Your strength pushes me back/ You don’t even know me/ I know what I know/

I never liked this/ I know how you see me/ I ‘ve always taken care of myself/ I just want you to hear me/ I just want you to know something/ I just want to be valued/ I just want to be seen/ How I react is normal/ What I feel is real/

I didn’t want this/ Don’t take away what I have/ I want credit for what I’ve earned/ What I have belongs to me/ I have what I have/ My voice is something/ I will keep talking/ I will keep living/ I will keep working/ I want my own life/ I’m telling you what I deserve/ I deserve what I’m owed/

What about me/I’ve done good things/ You don’t think about me/

You tell me what’s wrong/ That’s what’s wrong/ I want to be here/ I’m here because I’m me/ I want something/ I am hopeful/ The problem is big/ The problem is not me/ You can’t hear your wrongs/ You can’t hear if you don’t want to know/ You can’t hear what you can’t see/ You can’t hear what I need/ I keep talking/ I keep talking because I am strong/ I matter/ What I say matters/ Listen to me/ You’re always talking/ I know what feels wrong/ I am not the problem/ You never listened/ You’re ignoring problems/ You never asked what hurt me
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I know my place/ I belong where I am/ I belong where I am/ If I come closer, you’re threatened/ If I don’t move, you’re suspicious/ If I run away, you’re enraged/

Let me show you/ Let me control my life/ Let me talk to you/ Let me be/ I belong where I am/ I belong to myself