MARITZA RUIZ-KIM

Artist & Writer, San Francisco Bay Area

What Enn Wants

a baby sister, not a baby brother. I already have one of those.   Actually, what I really want is a baby kitty.    Yeah, that’s what I really want.


And Then There Were Possibly Three?

How do I tell my story of adding to my family through adoption? Do I talk about why I can’t be pregnant again? It’s not that I can’t get pregnant. I have friends with infertility. Or even stay pregnant (I have Read more…


Adorable Anyway

He’s just so cute. Is that really all I am going to say? I’m shocked at myself. Okay, so– he runs circles around me. I take him to the pumpkin patch today and the whole way there he keeps yelling Read more…


What is Constant

Am I a constant person? Constant, as in- day in, day out, same cheery person? No. I wish I was. But something that is absolutely constant, something I can always count on to be there for me… . Laundry. I can Read more…


I Don’t Know What I Don’t Know

  … we just don’t feel very good. That would be Zee right now. His asthma is coming back. He’s coughing. And he has a little cold. He just gets moody when he feels Yuck. Can I blame him? But Read more…


Brighter Day

Can you see the afternoon sun shining on his face? I love the sunlight at that time of day. It’s so filled with warmth, and when the day is slightly crisp like today, that amber glow is just refreshing. Enn Read more…


Downs Along with the Ups

I don’t want any downs. I don’t want this for anyone. The hard part of life. The very hard part of life. We are still working on our adoption process. It’s intense. Exciting. Knowing she may be out there, knowing Read more…


Choices

I am still doing studio work, but right now it’s focused on finishing Zee’s first year album. Also, I know it may seem that I have jumped from “artwork” obsession to “daughter” obsession, but maybe in 30 years, I’d rather Read more…


Fostering a Daughter

So we had our Screening Appointment yesterday. I think they like us. We learned a lot about the risk involved. The risk of getting our hearts broken if it doesn’t turn out just right. The risk of our beloved daughter Read more…


No, it’s OK

I was just kidding when I said “Come here right now”


Enough Girl

1.) I watched 2 netflix movies with my mom on Saturday. Seriously, these movies were in my queue and at my house waiting to be watched before we decided to begin our adoption journey. And yet, there they were, and Read more…


Waiting for a Girl

There’s not much else to do other than wait right now. We just got a letter in the mail confirming our Screening Appointment for Wednesday. I suppose this is where they decide if we know what we are getting into Read more…


A Daughter

I can’t believe that this is really happening, but it is. We’ve decided to foster adopt a daughter, a little girl, a toddler. I keep looking into G’s eyes and saying thank you! Because he didn’t have to really understand… Read more…


“We Want a Girl, Too”

So finally I can get to the point. We want a daughter. And when I say We, I mean: Me, GK, Enn, Zee. We want a little girl in our home. We want to expand our family to accommodate one Read more…


Just Once

Just once I’ll leave it at this. (I know, I deserve some real congratulations for keeping it short. Except it’s because I can’t figure out how to organize the thoughts I am thinking about. Soon, though. Oh shoot. I ruined Read more…


Ideas Creeping Around

I am constantly starting these blog posts and then they grow into these large unwieldy things that sprout out in so many directions and I can’t corral them. Which reminds me of coral. Have you ever learned about Coral? Enn Read more…


People Watching Animals Watching People

I went to the zoo today with Zee on a midweek outing that grew spontaneously & quickly from a walk in a new location (that I didn’t try to figure out until we were already driving), to a visit to Read more…


Only Little for a Little While

He is so little, my little Zee. I love him. I have this new outlook on mothering/child-rearing that is really helping me. It’s a change of my whole frame of mind. You see, just to preface it all, I have Read more…


Accidental Tourist at IKEA

Another surreal thing happened to me today. GK and I headed out to IKEA Emeryville, and of course I loved seeing some Goteburg cookies and identifying with the place, not just seeing it as a brand name, and then reading Read more…


We’ve Arrived

  It’s happened! We’ve arrived at this elementary school, and my firstborn son has entered Kindergarten. In a sense, it’s as if there’s been this whole march of crowds of people that have been walking on this journey of formal Read more…